Yesterday, playing outside, eating hotdogs, talking -- those are the moments where I realize how great everything is. Jon hugged me in hallway 'cause that's what I said I needed.

"But see, you're laughing and smiling when you're talking about it now, so it must not have been so horrible." - AJ1J

What can you ever do except keep moving forward? I am very excited about the things I am going to create - and I feel like I've finally come to grips with the fact that my only option is to completely dedicate myself and throw myself into it and basically beat myself up over it. Now I'm looking forward to that, though.