(you can hear "Jon and Kate + 8" on in the background. Also the video is flipped. Ulll.)

Okay, I want to take a second to talk about this, because I didn't talk about it in the book. I feel some need to contextualize the images in the book - or maybe I don't? Do they speak for themselves? It is unavoidable that there are things represented that I wouldn't stand behind now, or aren't involved in now. Also, like most journalistic art - I am thinking of songwriting in particular - there is so much more to say when you are sad (not to mention the time to say it, since you aren't like, having fun or anything).

Talked to Walker on the phone for a bit yesterday. It was somewhere between a warning and asking for permission.

"I mean, you're in a lot of it. And most of it's good. There's like... one thing that looks like I really hate you. Two things. But ypu know I don't." (This goes for everyone)
"I would never tell someone what they can and can't publish, so..."

Oh, artists. 'Make sure to never do it with a singer 'cause they'll tell everyone in the world what they were thinkin' about the girl', right?





But I can't stop flipping through it, because 1) Wow, it's done, it's here, and 2) I keep trying to imagine what someone who never knew me would think of me while flipping through it. I kinda sound like a hot mess. Or not? I have no idea.

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3 years, yesterday. I think the 3 year mark is the moment where you realize you aren't as much of a hotshot as you thought.

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Anthony's phone's welcoming message is "you are golden."

"Mine is, 'IT'S YOUR YEAR'," I said.
"So we both have positive messages. Has it been your year? Are you finishing stronger than you started?"
"Yeah, I think so," I said. "Actually, yes. Definitely."