Callum IS coming! I am ecstatic. This is what I was trying to tell him - I care about him, more than he knows, probably, and did I feel any differently, did I sense a change in my life, after I dropped 300+ dollars on him? No. It was as if nothing had happened to me. And really, nothing had.

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I saw Stephen and Mitchell and Melanie tonight: so lovely, especially since I didn't think I would leave my bed and stop watching Jon and Kate + 8 (I can name them all: Cara, Mady, Joel, Collin, Aaden, Hannah, Leah, Alexis). When I said hello Stephen picked me up and I jumped on him, legs wrapped around the waist, and we kissed hello and hugged furiously - it was beautiful, really, and what I had missed about Texas and hadn't found yet.

"Where have you been the last two years of my life?"
"Lookin' for you, bebe."

At the end of the night Stephen and I took some time to talk on the curb about "guilt shit." It's nice to identify with the people you care about, and to learn that they stuck up for you in the past.


My heart is smiling.